Highs

There are times I really wish my pancreas wasn't so lazy that it couldn't help out JUST A BIT when I'm running high. Especially when I run high for days on end despite increasing basal rates, decreasing carb ratios, and trying to figure out causes.

My average blood sugar today is 10.3 (185 mg/dl), and that is including a random low (that, to add insult to injury, I didn't feel which I HATE). The rest were all high except for this morning when I woke up in range. I've had that icky dry mouth, thirsty feeling all day today and am tired. Well, I've been tired for ... months? I've really over-extended myself in terms of my committments (three part-time teaching jobs, part-time school, and volunteering), I'm really going to have to cut back on that after the summer. Perhaps it's stress. I have been stressed the past week or so.

I don't know if it's hormones, or if my body is trying to fight off one of the five billion bugs floating around the schools, or what. I don't understand why I wake up normal and then am high pretty much the entire day, even when I correct and don't eat for hours. But then, occasionally, a correction will make me go low. And if I happen to be normal and don't eat, I drift downwards. So my blood sugars for the past week or so consist of highs and lows with only a scattering of random readings in range.

I feel like I am completely messed up right now. But yet, a week or two ago things were fairly smooth. I mean I never feel like I have as good control as some people out there, but if the majority of my readings are in range, a few highs and lows are inevitable. I know I probably should be doing some meal-skipping and such ... I wish I could just hit reset and start over. Skipping a meal when you're a teacher is a hard thing to do, I tell you!

And now I should head to bed, still sitting at 11.2 (202 mg/dl), no lower than I was last time I corrected. I wonder whether something could be wrong with the insulin. I have a new vial in the fridge so might scrap my current cartridge and start a new one tomorrow.